Why I have being so lackadaisically ??
:(
Why is this my attitude ??
:(
Why couldnt I work harder ??
Put in more effort ??
:(
Feeling bad & Sad about myself........
:( :(
D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-M-E-N-T
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Thursday, September 30, 2010
D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-M-E-N-T
Why I have being so lackadaisically ??
:(
Why is this my attitude ??
:(
Why couldnt I work harder ??
Put in more effort ??
:(
Feeling bad & Sad about myself........
:( :(
D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-M-E-N-T
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Soulless
I have been viewing around in Facebook since the morning until the evening with poor productivity in my works.
I'd want to know what's happening
Am disappointing with myself for behaving so.
Maybe,
An empty heart needs to belong to somewhere
While, am trying to get a space for myself
To fill up the heart
Or,
It had been flew away
Far off from my body and left,
The facade and skeleton
Perhaps I shall outbreak myself
Implement the knowledge learned
To get myself belongs to somewhere
Thoroughly
And,
Could always standing firm there
I'd want to know what's happening
Am disappointing with myself for behaving so.
Maybe,
An empty heart needs to belong to somewhere
While, am trying to get a space for myself
To fill up the heart
Or,
It had been flew away
Far off from my body and left,
The facade and skeleton
Perhaps I shall outbreak myself
Implement the knowledge learned
To get myself belongs to somewhere
Thoroughly
And,
Could always standing firm there
Friday, September 3, 2010
Happiest moment of the day ~*
Happiness perhaps something chasing by everyone every moment, everyday, ...
How does happiness define to you?
A simple thing might touches someone's heart,
Someone might need some big thing to touch their heart.
These are something could make someone feels the happy.
Happiness could cheer you, Him/Her, anyone.
Smile :)
I had been moved into my uncle's house which is quite far away from city or my office.
Averagely, I need to travel for an hour to go & back from my office.
It is quite tiring, honestly.
And yet, I found the happiest moment from here.
When I come back, my sis'd buy the food nearby her college.
Then, when we reach home, every1 preparing to get for the meal.
We sit down & eat together.
The simple action touched my heart.
Chinese culture, Union of family.
It is important to get every members of the family to sit down and have a meal.
:)
It is pretty moment after a tiring day.
最紧要就系一家人齐齐整整食一餐饭
How does happiness define to you?
A simple thing might touches someone's heart,
Someone might need some big thing to touch their heart.
These are something could make someone feels the happy.
Happiness could cheer you, Him/Her, anyone.
Smile :)
I had been moved into my uncle's house which is quite far away from city or my office.
Averagely, I need to travel for an hour to go & back from my office.
It is quite tiring, honestly.
And yet, I found the happiest moment from here.
When I come back, my sis'd buy the food nearby her college.
Then, when we reach home, every1 preparing to get for the meal.
We sit down & eat together.
The simple action touched my heart.
Chinese culture, Union of family.
It is important to get every members of the family to sit down and have a meal.
:)
It is pretty moment after a tiring day.
最紧要就系一家人齐齐整整食一餐饭
Monday, August 23, 2010
一个人的叻沙并不好吃
As usual, didnt want to wake up. =.=
Monday~~ :(
The car park sitter asked "lama tak datang? Tak kerja?"
Shaked my head "took LRT"
paid him RM6 for uncovered + unfurnish ground carpark per entry
Hungry due to skipped dinner last night,
Bought myself a cold nasi lemak from 7-11 after dilly-dally for 30 seconds
Lemak-less rice, sambal, etc no good :(
Cost me RM2 :(
Monday blue
Heartless in office for more than 1 week :(
Game for whole morning
Bejeweled, Bubble Spinner
Lunch
Mamak again, fasting month, only mamak
And, it looked like to rain
Bihun Goreng + Teh Tarik = RM5
Told myself to start work
Heartless to the structural works,
Asked myself to shift to architectural works
The drawings fainted me
Yet still manage to catch bit by bit
Working mood was cultivated bit by bit
Left office an hour later after the office hours
Just to finish what is in my mind
Worried would lost the determination tomorrow
My manager approached me for a few words
Just normal greeting
Yet, I worry that is something about project
Well, being selected to follow up the headache project which i hate the most
Anyway, i'm just the alternate person-in-charge
But, the person in-charge hardly to be in KL :(
I left
Surprisingly, It is still jamming on the road
I took the alternate way
Broke the rule
Passing the road barrier and got up to the flyover
Heading to night market in SS2
Craving for the Laksa
Across the road kerb illegally again
Then, Turning 2 rounds and finally got a legal parking bay
:)
I saw a few raindrops on my windscreen
I risked
I had my laksa + chicken floss bread as my breakfast for tmr
Laksa isnt that nice...... :(
RM4 + RM2
OK
I gone through the risk safely
I succeeded to get home before the rain pour
It is mid July of lunar calendar today
Saw somebody pray at the road side
RM19 carry to sum >___<
Monday~~ :(
The car park sitter asked "lama tak datang? Tak kerja?"
Shaked my head "took LRT"
paid him RM6 for uncovered + unfurnish ground carpark per entry
Hungry due to skipped dinner last night,
Bought myself a cold nasi lemak from 7-11 after dilly-dally for 30 seconds
Lemak-less rice, sambal, etc no good :(
Cost me RM2 :(
Monday blue
Heartless in office for more than 1 week :(
Game for whole morning
Bejeweled, Bubble Spinner
Lunch
Mamak again, fasting month, only mamak
And, it looked like to rain
Bihun Goreng + Teh Tarik = RM5
Told myself to start work
Heartless to the structural works,
Asked myself to shift to architectural works
The drawings fainted me
Yet still manage to catch bit by bit
Working mood was cultivated bit by bit
Left office an hour later after the office hours
Just to finish what is in my mind
Worried would lost the determination tomorrow
My manager approached me for a few words
Just normal greeting
Yet, I worry that is something about project
Well, being selected to follow up the headache project which i hate the most
Anyway, i'm just the alternate person-in-charge
But, the person in-charge hardly to be in KL :(
I left
Surprisingly, It is still jamming on the road
I took the alternate way
Broke the rule
Passing the road barrier and got up to the flyover
Heading to night market in SS2
Craving for the Laksa
Across the road kerb illegally again
Then, Turning 2 rounds and finally got a legal parking bay
:)
I saw a few raindrops on my windscreen
I risked
I had my laksa + chicken floss bread as my breakfast for tmr
Laksa isnt that nice...... :(
RM4 + RM2
OK
I gone through the risk safely
I succeeded to get home before the rain pour
It is mid July of lunar calendar today
Saw somebody pray at the road side
RM19 carry to sum >___<
Monday, August 16, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Life v MoneY
Was attracted by the RM1 fare by Air Asia.
Checking where to go..
I was interested in 2 destinations -- Krabi,Thailand ; Siem Reap,Cambodia.
I hope to pay a visit to Krabi is because of the nature.
I love the blue sea,
I love the greenish nature parks,
I love to see the mysterious of the caves,
Would like to go on the streets to feel the night life of Thai.
I hope to pay a visit to Siem Reap is because of the wonder!!!!
Angkor Wat, ,one of the 7 wonders.
I do have strong feel on the broken building.
To see the old time etched on the building.
To see the poorer life in Cambodia, to feel~~
[However, I dint have the interest to go to Stonehenge even i went to England :S]
==============================================================
Well, recently there is another tempting heart promotion by Air Asia
RM99 to Seoul, Korea.
Hmmm, however i have not being attract by it.
Not interested with Korea.
I have quite a lot of friends bought the tickets.
Em, They are rich to me.
[I really dont know where have been my money gone..]
==============================================================
Life,
Is for work?
Is for travel?
Is for anything? Anyone?
Well, everyone has their own ambition.
Someone, earn & save the money for investment
Someone, earn & save the money for traveling
Someone, earn & save the money for someone
Someone, etc...
Honestly,
I do jealous on my friends who earn more than me.
Yet, I stick to my target,
I think, the company could provide me the experience.
Hope, this risk I'm undertaking will really bring me benefit.
I asked myself,
What do I want for my life.
Em, I want stability.
I like to be flexible in stable life.
Flexibility in Stability
I want a covered area to form my own space, perhaps a family / my life.
I have been craving that badly.
Yet, financially failed to support the dream.
So, It depends, ur mind affects ur action.
Anyway, I do hope to catch more natural moment ~~
Here to share the reasons I like Angkor Wat through pictures =)
Checking where to go..
I was interested in 2 destinations -- Krabi,Thailand ; Siem Reap,Cambodia.
I hope to pay a visit to Krabi is because of the nature.
I love the blue sea,
I love the greenish nature parks,
I love to see the mysterious of the caves,
Would like to go on the streets to feel the night life of Thai.
I hope to pay a visit to Siem Reap is because of the wonder!!!!
Angkor Wat, ,one of the 7 wonders.
I do have strong feel on the broken building.
To see the old time etched on the building.
To see the poorer life in Cambodia, to feel~~
[However, I dint have the interest to go to Stonehenge even i went to England :S]
==============================================================
Well, recently there is another tempting heart promotion by Air Asia
RM99 to Seoul, Korea.
Hmmm, however i have not being attract by it.
Not interested with Korea.
I have quite a lot of friends bought the tickets.
Em, They are rich to me.
[I really dont know where have been my money gone..]
==============================================================
Life,
Is for work?
Is for travel?
Is for anything? Anyone?
Well, everyone has their own ambition.
Someone, earn & save the money for investment
Someone, earn & save the money for traveling
Someone, earn & save the money for someone
Someone, etc...
Honestly,
I do jealous on my friends who earn more than me.
Yet, I stick to my target,
I think, the company could provide me the experience.
Hope, this risk I'm undertaking will really bring me benefit.
I asked myself,
What do I want for my life.
Em, I want stability.
I like to be flexible in stable life.
Flexibility in Stability
I want a covered area to form my own space, perhaps a family / my life.
I have been craving that badly.
Yet, financially failed to support the dream.
So, It depends, ur mind affects ur action.
Anyway, I do hope to catch more natural moment ~~
Here to share the reasons I like Angkor Wat through pictures =)
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
今天
13/7
早上，好像很晒 8am
中午，只看到日光灯 1pm - 2pm
晚上，温和
我不知道今天去到公司会要做些什么。
只知道自己的那一个project还有一点手尾，开会以前要解决。
做-做-做。
“艳淇，你可以自己去开会吗？” “哦，我可以搭计程车去”
“艳淇，老板叫你不用去开会了，留下来作另一个project的价钱估计，明天要交” “哦！”
“Ms. Goh, this taufufa for u as lunch” “哦！”
“艳淇，吃了老板娘的豆花，要做更多点” =）
做-做-做。
头痛，很久没发作了。我想，今天，我累了/我压力了。
“Ms. Goh, please come and collect the documents from me, I'm downstair"
" Mana U pergi? Kenapa tak makan lagi" ”你刚才去哪里？“
"Architect 来找我”
考虑到底要吃些什么。吃-吃-吃。
然后，做-做-做。
晚餐，解决了。
今天，有一个模糊的人一直在脑海里。
我一直看不清楚，直到你的来电铃声响起。
那模糊的人，就是你。
对不起，我真的好像忘了，你今天还没给我拨电话。
5分钟，你在天涯海角；我在房间角落。
就只是这样。
很累，睡着了。
醒来，冲凉。洗衣。
做面膜，看书。
欣怡的新书，很简单，还蛮有感觉的。
佩服她的照片，嗯，没有真正欣赏照片想带来的含义。
书，看完了。
活该 ：男女- 忆意 - 怪诞 - 阴暗 - 疼爱 - 假象
看到，一些贴近生活的点滴。
工作，挺久了。
暂时，还没讨厌。
只是，偶尔压力。
发现，人人为己。
觉得，我好单纯。
我想，为自己着想多一点，小心一点。。。。。。
爱情，分分合合，看得厌倦了！
身边，最近还蛮常听到喜讯。
多少人真的可以走到这一个点。
If I were them, I must be feeling myself being BLESSED!
默默地祝福他们。
爱情，开始得不容易。
爱情，经历更不容易。
爱情，维系很不容易。
最后，结婚最不容易。
刚刚听了王力宏的新歌。
柴米油盐酱醋茶
华人的七大食料
爱情、另一半，也是人生最重要的部分之一，好比，柴米油盐酱醋茶。
我觉得，爱情，是，需要，一起，经历，大小事件。
即使，一个家里的电话录音。
有感动，如果，真的，可以，一起老。
早上，好像很晒 8am
中午，只看到日光灯 1pm - 2pm
晚上，温和
我不知道今天去到公司会要做些什么。
只知道自己的那一个project还有一点手尾，开会以前要解决。
做-做-做。
“艳淇，你可以自己去开会吗？” “哦，我可以搭计程车去”
“艳淇，老板叫你不用去开会了，留下来作另一个project的价钱估计，明天要交” “哦！”
“Ms. Goh, this taufufa for u as lunch” “哦！”
“艳淇，吃了老板娘的豆花，要做更多点” =）
做-做-做。
头痛，很久没发作了。我想，今天，我累了/我压力了。
“Ms. Goh, please come and collect the documents from me, I'm downstair"
" Mana U pergi? Kenapa tak makan lagi" ”你刚才去哪里？“
"Architect 来找我”
考虑到底要吃些什么。吃-吃-吃。
然后，做-做-做。
晚餐，解决了。
今天，有一个模糊的人一直在脑海里。
我一直看不清楚，直到你的来电铃声响起。
那模糊的人，就是你。
对不起，我真的好像忘了，你今天还没给我拨电话。
5分钟，你在天涯海角；我在房间角落。
就只是这样。
很累，睡着了。
醒来，冲凉。洗衣。
做面膜，看书。
欣怡的新书，很简单，还蛮有感觉的。
佩服她的照片，嗯，没有真正欣赏照片想带来的含义。
书，看完了。
活该 ：男女- 忆意 - 怪诞 - 阴暗 - 疼爱 - 假象
看到，一些贴近生活的点滴。
工作，挺久了。
暂时，还没讨厌。
只是，偶尔压力。
发现，人人为己。
觉得，我好单纯。
我想，为自己着想多一点，小心一点。。。。。。
爱情，分分合合，看得厌倦了！
身边，最近还蛮常听到喜讯。
多少人真的可以走到这一个点。
If I were them, I must be feeling myself being BLESSED!
默默地祝福他们。
爱情，开始得不容易。
爱情，经历更不容易。
爱情，维系很不容易。
最后，结婚最不容易。
刚刚听了王力宏的新歌。
柴米油盐酱醋茶
华人的七大食料
爱情、另一半，也是人生最重要的部分之一，好比，柴米油盐酱醋茶。
我觉得，爱情，是，需要，一起，经历，大小事件。
即使，一个家里的电话录音。
有感动，如果，真的，可以，一起老。
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Summary of 2009
好像很快，2009的尾声，近在眼前。
我的脑，还停留在盘算圣诞节时的一切。
年底，第二次生病了。同样的病，同一个月份，两次。
2009，发生了很多很多东西
第一次 · 恋爱
第一次 · 踏足英国
第一次 · 自助自由行
第一次 · 做工
第一次 · 被家人搞得遍体鳞伤
我还记得，曾经有一位老师说过。
其实不是喜不喜欢，爱不爱，而是给不给对方机会。
我一直觉得如是，然而却不明白。
现在，好像终于参透了。
机会，我给了双方，跨出那一步，实语，是挣扎的。
一路走去，时而晴朗，时而阴暗。
曾经，柳暗花明又一村。
崎岖的路，使我看不见前方，但我习与为之。
船到桥都自然直，在某些时刻，我该懂得为自己做决定。
我还记得，飞机起飞时，眼泪流下时，我知道我不舍得。
我更知道，自己对于此程，没有太大的兴趣。
我不舍得，我的家人，我的朋友。。。。还有这里的一切。
去到哪里，我知道我不会一个人留在那里。
我心中明白到，我不能够一个人伸出异乡，无依无靠。即使一个朋友都没！
虽然如此，我看到了很多，学到了一些，体会了不一样的东西。。。。。
回来以后，偶然还是挂念在那里的日子。
或许，某天，我会回去。
以前，一直憧憬，一个人的背包旅行。
虽然我觉得，自己好像已经不太可能实现这么伟大的梦。
然而，却圆了一半的梦。跟朋友一起自助旅行。
在英国，我们去了很多的地方，虽说自助，可是自己好像都没下几分苦力。
我只是参与。真正的自助旅行，是在夏天结束之前，伦敦和香港之旅。
哪一个旅行，是我第二次去伦敦和香港，我更了解，及更认识这两个地方了。
^^
结束暑假课程，回到家里不久，我便开始工作。
因为我不想再有丝毫拖延。
一，我可以收更多的钱，如果我会继续深造。
二，暑假课程之前，我有四个月的假期。
开始工作以后，有点无法适从，我失去了时间上的自由。
我不能在周日去逛街，看戏。。。 所有的事情，必须在周末或假日。
工作无法专心，正facebook,副工作。
我想，我要改掉着一个习惯。
我应该更积极面对自己的工作，更努力进取一些。
工作以后，我的生活，好像都改变了。
我好像从此没了靠山。。。
妈妈犹如债主般要钱，我不知该往哪儿跑。
一次又一次，眼泪直下，无法制止。
一次又一次的心疼，狠心的一刀又一刀。
我无言，不想表达任何一页。
我想，我该确确实实地说出自己所想要，狠狠地决定。
我想，我喜欢上了英国，在我离开以后。
我想，我会去更多地方游走，首先，马来西亚。
我想，我该即刻改过自新，全心投入工作。
我想，自己才是最终可以依靠的人，无需向人低头。
人随着时间长大，明白的，渐多。
失去的，免提。
想要的，期待着。
愿，一切随心如意，安好，顺利。
我只想顺其自然，不要麻烦地安排。
我的脑，还停留在盘算圣诞节时的一切。
年底，第二次生病了。同样的病，同一个月份，两次。
2009，发生了很多很多东西
第一次 · 恋爱
第一次 · 踏足英国
第一次 · 自助自由行
第一次 · 做工
第一次 · 被家人搞得遍体鳞伤
我还记得，曾经有一位老师说过。
其实不是喜不喜欢，爱不爱，而是给不给对方机会。
我一直觉得如是，然而却不明白。
现在，好像终于参透了。
机会，我给了双方，跨出那一步，实语，是挣扎的。
一路走去，时而晴朗，时而阴暗。
曾经，柳暗花明又一村。
崎岖的路，使我看不见前方，但我习与为之。
船到桥都自然直，在某些时刻，我该懂得为自己做决定。
我还记得，飞机起飞时，眼泪流下时，我知道我不舍得。
我更知道，自己对于此程，没有太大的兴趣。
我不舍得，我的家人，我的朋友。。。。还有这里的一切。
去到哪里，我知道我不会一个人留在那里。
我心中明白到，我不能够一个人伸出异乡，无依无靠。即使一个朋友都没！
虽然如此，我看到了很多，学到了一些，体会了不一样的东西。。。。。
回来以后，偶然还是挂念在那里的日子。
或许，某天，我会回去。
以前，一直憧憬，一个人的背包旅行。
虽然我觉得，自己好像已经不太可能实现这么伟大的梦。
然而，却圆了一半的梦。跟朋友一起自助旅行。
在英国，我们去了很多的地方，虽说自助，可是自己好像都没下几分苦力。
我只是参与。真正的自助旅行，是在夏天结束之前，伦敦和香港之旅。
哪一个旅行，是我第二次去伦敦和香港，我更了解，及更认识这两个地方了。
^^
结束暑假课程，回到家里不久，我便开始工作。
因为我不想再有丝毫拖延。
一，我可以收更多的钱，如果我会继续深造。
二，暑假课程之前，我有四个月的假期。
开始工作以后，有点无法适从，我失去了时间上的自由。
我不能在周日去逛街，看戏。。。 所有的事情，必须在周末或假日。
工作无法专心，正facebook,副工作。
我想，我要改掉着一个习惯。
我应该更积极面对自己的工作，更努力进取一些。
工作以后，我的生活，好像都改变了。
我好像从此没了靠山。。。
妈妈犹如债主般要钱，我不知该往哪儿跑。
一次又一次，眼泪直下，无法制止。
一次又一次的心疼，狠心的一刀又一刀。
我无言，不想表达任何一页。
我想，我该确确实实地说出自己所想要，狠狠地决定。
我想，我喜欢上了英国，在我离开以后。
我想，我会去更多地方游走，首先，马来西亚。
我想，我该即刻改过自新，全心投入工作。
我想，自己才是最终可以依靠的人，无需向人低头。
人随着时间长大，明白的，渐多。
失去的，免提。
想要的，期待着。
愿，一切随心如意，安好，顺利。
我只想顺其自然，不要麻烦地安排。
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Goh YanQi
Since I've back from UK, I've not been updating about myself in my blog
This is because the blog had occurred some error and i hope it's gone now.
i also not sure what to be written here, but i'm free in the office so i have the time to think =)
I didn't really stop down myself after the London and Hong Kong trip. I just stayed at home for about 2 weeks time, then i move towards to KL and started my own expected, planned life. Yet, everything didn't seems well even until this moment. I'm frustrated with that, but I know it isnt something i could manage as in my finger tip, i have to wait..
I got a job which has to start to work on 1st Oct. I rejected the job actually but the interviewer kept pursuading me. And, finally he won it and i stayed. The feel wasn't good even i have started my job there. That was lonely life. Eat alone, even with roommate, yet doesn't talk. Sorry to say that, i couldn't understand her life. I chose to quit. While i was suffering my life there, i tried to get support from my family, beloved etc.. It seems like no one >.<
On that moment, i felt like, I'm a new born human on the earth, in the social with no one beside me. Nobody could unduerstand me. I didn't know the accuracy of my decision, I just know, I was really upset.
Life wasn't as good as i thought.
My 1st job, drew up something significant in my career life. It was busy, tasteless, and dull. I reached my office early in the morning, then started to work, then would take the lonely lunch, Then continue to work. Even it's time to get off, but everyone is still working. I should to go off at 5.30pm, even i work until 6.30pm, Colleague still stare at me when i go off... =.= The life was tiring.
However, i managed to quit lastly.
And, immediately i started my 2nd job on the next day. Tiring and rushing life continued. Yet, i have colleagues to eat together during lunch, punctual lunch time, chit-chatting throughout the lunch.. Work but slightly brighten up as well.
The busy life continued for 3 months and finally i could stop down after working for about 2 monts. Now, i'm shaking legs in my office. I'm thoroughly free!!!
I'm sleepy as well...
Well, will be continued...
Dont have the mood to write ><
This is because the blog had occurred some error and i hope it's gone now.
i also not sure what to be written here, but i'm free in the office so i have the time to think =)
I didn't really stop down myself after the London and Hong Kong trip. I just stayed at home for about 2 weeks time, then i move towards to KL and started my own expected, planned life. Yet, everything didn't seems well even until this moment. I'm frustrated with that, but I know it isnt something i could manage as in my finger tip, i have to wait..
I got a job which has to start to work on 1st Oct. I rejected the job actually but the interviewer kept pursuading me. And, finally he won it and i stayed. The feel wasn't good even i have started my job there. That was lonely life. Eat alone, even with roommate, yet doesn't talk. Sorry to say that, i couldn't understand her life. I chose to quit. While i was suffering my life there, i tried to get support from my family, beloved etc.. It seems like no one >.<
On that moment, i felt like, I'm a new born human on the earth, in the social with no one beside me. Nobody could unduerstand me. I didn't know the accuracy of my decision, I just know, I was really upset.
Life wasn't as good as i thought.
My 1st job, drew up something significant in my career life. It was busy, tasteless, and dull. I reached my office early in the morning, then started to work, then would take the lonely lunch, Then continue to work. Even it's time to get off, but everyone is still working. I should to go off at 5.30pm, even i work until 6.30pm, Colleague still stare at me when i go off... =.= The life was tiring.
However, i managed to quit lastly.
And, immediately i started my 2nd job on the next day. Tiring and rushing life continued. Yet, i have colleagues to eat together during lunch, punctual lunch time, chit-chatting throughout the lunch.. Work but slightly brighten up as well.
The busy life continued for 3 months and finally i could stop down after working for about 2 monts. Now, i'm shaking legs in my office. I'm thoroughly free!!!
I'm sleepy as well...
Well, will be continued...
Dont have the mood to write ><
Sunday, October 4, 2009
吃饭的压力
阿姨刚刚叫我吃饭，说开饭了，一切准备好了。
我却不敢下去，就不想看到不想看到的巨面
华人一向注重礼义廉耻，所以姨丈认为饭前叫所有人吃饭是一种礼貌，尤其长辈。
而我却觉得，反正大家坐下来了，为什么还要这样客气？？
凡正就是一家人吃饭，应该轻松地享受，无需拘礼。
昨天，听妹妹说，他在大厅广众面前说，要强逼我叫完所有人才可以吃。
。。。 。。。。 。。。。
好彩，妹妹冲凉，我说，我要等妹妹一起吃。。
嗯，就连最简单的吃饭也这样。。
=(
听到他们吃饭的声音，我还真却步了。。。
我却不敢下去，就不想看到不想看到的巨面
华人一向注重礼义廉耻，所以姨丈认为饭前叫所有人吃饭是一种礼貌，尤其长辈。
而我却觉得，反正大家坐下来了，为什么还要这样客气？？
凡正就是一家人吃饭，应该轻松地享受，无需拘礼。
昨天，听妹妹说，他在大厅广众面前说，要强逼我叫完所有人才可以吃。
。。。 。。。。 。。。。
好彩，妹妹冲凉，我说，我要等妹妹一起吃。。
嗯，就连最简单的吃饭也这样。。
=(
听到他们吃饭的声音，我还真却步了。。。
Update about YQ
I had being in Malaysia for half a month time =)
I wished to come back eagerly when i was in UK, i thought there is nth worth for me to stay down as i'm 'alone' there.
But when i left and depart and step on my homeland, there was a weird feeling rose in my heart, i didnt know how to describe it.
Somewhere so so so familiar to me, yet so strange to me..
The environment is totally different. There is another feel to see those malay nowadays... >,<
After back here, honestly i did nth even meeting on my friends.
I didnt contact ppl, but after that i just met up with my best friends..
The gathering was quite nice to me, i love it!!!!
It is really a long long time that i didnt 'yamcha' with friends..
No night life in UK >,<
Then, i had proceeded to KL
And i also got a job which i never plan or think of.
Yap, it's a QS job, and yet... it's sth about interior design, the company's speciality is totally new to me. Hmm~~~
I'm giving myself a chance to try... I'd quit if i couldnt suit myself there.
I felt the pressure, maybe of the environment, It just like i couldnt release myself even after work.
I hate the traffic jam!!! when go and back from work >,<
After back to here, and saw tonnes of cars... i felt heavy...upset!
Dunno wat would happen on me after this...?!
Just quick brief on my life, maybe would have lesser update after this
Cause i dunno does my company allow the staffs to blog anot as they blocked the friends maker websites like FB =(
Good luck to everyone =D
I wished to come back eagerly when i was in UK, i thought there is nth worth for me to stay down as i'm 'alone' there.
But when i left and depart and step on my homeland, there was a weird feeling rose in my heart, i didnt know how to describe it.
Somewhere so so so familiar to me, yet so strange to me..
The environment is totally different. There is another feel to see those malay nowadays... >,<
After back here, honestly i did nth even meeting on my friends.
I didnt contact ppl, but after that i just met up with my best friends..
The gathering was quite nice to me, i love it!!!!
It is really a long long time that i didnt 'yamcha' with friends..
No night life in UK >,<
Then, i had proceeded to KL
And i also got a job which i never plan or think of.
Yap, it's a QS job, and yet... it's sth about interior design, the company's speciality is totally new to me. Hmm~~~
I'm giving myself a chance to try... I'd quit if i couldnt suit myself there.
I felt the pressure, maybe of the environment, It just like i couldnt release myself even after work.
I hate the traffic jam!!! when go and back from work >,<
After back to here, and saw tonnes of cars... i felt heavy...upset!
Dunno wat would happen on me after this...?!
Just quick brief on my life, maybe would have lesser update after this
Cause i dunno does my company allow the staffs to blog anot as they blocked the friends maker websites like FB =(
Good luck to everyone =D
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Being Imposed!!!
It is so soon that i'm leaving Liverpool now...
I didnt expect to make new friends here, i mean someone who is close to me, whose can share life together.
Sorry that i dont know since when i had lost the passion in making new friends..
I was walking in city centre with my friends, and i received a call from my friend.
She seldom call to me, and that's why i feel weird to receive the call...
Her "there is closing down sales in Crocs"
Friend "why would she call u ger?"
YQ "maybe she knows i wanted to buy Crocs"
When i arrived in Crocs, i thought she went off, who knows, i still met her there.
She came to have few words with me, and i replied, then she went to talk with my friends.
After all, my friends told me... We knew her intention...
She needs my friends to deliver sth for her bf....
Haiz ><>
I was so frustrated after knowing her intention...
The feel was so bad!
Actually, i was being told she is very cunning and do everything with an intention?
I just never expect even such a tiny thing, she also did it with an intention......
Sob!
I didnt expect to make new friends here, i mean someone who is close to me, whose can share life together.
Sorry that i dont know since when i had lost the passion in making new friends..
I was walking in city centre with my friends, and i received a call from my friend.
She seldom call to me, and that's why i feel weird to receive the call...
Her "there is closing down sales in Crocs"
Friend "why would she call u ger?"
YQ "maybe she knows i wanted to buy Crocs"
When i arrived in Crocs, i thought she went off, who knows, i still met her there.
She came to have few words with me, and i replied, then she went to talk with my friends.
After all, my friends told me... We knew her intention...
She needs my friends to deliver sth for her bf....
Haiz ><>
I was so frustrated after knowing her intention...
The feel was so bad!
Actually, i was being told she is very cunning and do everything with an intention?
I just never expect even such a tiny thing, she also did it with an intention......
Sob!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Night Walk
Always sleep in the very late midnight...
Busying something means nothing..,
Tired + Sleepy in class...
I was having a nap this evening, When i woke up..
I felt to go out to buy my thing..
And i get what i want to.. Bread...
9pm++, i think about to 10pm...
The Sun begun to set, lighting on the streets..
I pass the pubs and bistros, crowds everywhere...
Cars park along the road, full!!!
It has been a very long time I dun see such a situation.
It brought me back to the Friday night in KL city..
Where i always went out at night, for movie, for a drink, for..... anything..
As long as i wanted to go out... To relax....
Busying something means nothing..,
Tired + Sleepy in class...
I was having a nap this evening, When i woke up..
I felt to go out to buy my thing..
And i get what i want to.. Bread...
9pm++, i think about to 10pm...
The Sun begun to set, lighting on the streets..
I pass the pubs and bistros, crowds everywhere...
Cars park along the road, full!!!
It has been a very long time I dun see such a situation.
It brought me back to the Friday night in KL city..
Where i always went out at night, for movie, for a drink, for..... anything..As long as i wanted to go out... To relax....
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Malaysians Style Breakfast
I woke up around 6am sth...
So unwilling to wake up as i still sleepy...
It's a nice day..
Nice weather.. even without sunshine.....
Quite cloudy...
And I decided to make myself a nice breakfast for waking up so early..
=p
Just a tiny award to myself before i start to do my revision for the exam papers on next week...
As i have extra 10 eggs in a sudden..
Then, i decided to make this breakfast for myself..
Milo + Half boiled egg + Bread ^^
= Satisfied!!!
Hope, i could really study sth today.... =p
So unwilling to wake up as i still sleepy...
It's a nice day..
Nice weather.. even without sunshine.....
Quite cloudy...
And I decided to make myself a nice breakfast for waking up so early..
=p
Just a tiny award to myself before i start to do my revision for the exam papers on next week...
As i have extra 10 eggs in a sudden..
Then, i decided to make this breakfast for myself..
Milo + Half boiled egg + Bread ^^
= Satisfied!!!
Hope, i could really study sth today.... =p
Friday, July 3, 2009
闷
HHHhhhmmmmm~~ 忽然胸口闷着闷着。
这两天很想听歌，一些不一样的歌。
偶尔觉得，太安静了。
昨晚，半夜，朋友说想出去走走，12am 我竟然说，要就走吧！
虽然出去，可能一个人走，但就想出去。
最后，还是留在家里，泡网
嗯，终于看完巾帼袅雄，感动，流泪
夜深，天快亮，我才入睡。
醒来，天没有很亮，因为外面飘着毛毛细雨。
心情，好像也这样子，
闷闷地
阴阴地
讲话也没有很客气
心情总是不安牌理出牌 >..<
其实，很想躲在厚厚的被窝里
其实，很想被抱着，很想念哪一个体温
嗯，忽然什么都不想做。。。
又是懒懒的艳琦
这两天很想听歌，一些不一样的歌。
偶尔觉得，太安静了。
昨晚，半夜，朋友说想出去走走，12am 我竟然说，要就走吧！
虽然出去，可能一个人走，但就想出去。
最后，还是留在家里，泡网
嗯，终于看完巾帼袅雄，感动，流泪
夜深，天快亮，我才入睡。
醒来，天没有很亮，因为外面飘着毛毛细雨。
心情，好像也这样子，
闷闷地
阴阴地
讲话也没有很客气
心情总是不安牌理出牌 >..<
其实，很想躲在厚厚的被窝里
其实，很想被抱着，很想念哪一个体温
嗯，忽然什么都不想做。。。
又是懒懒的艳琦
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Birthday in London
It was just like dreaming when I knew I'm going to spend my birthday in London.
London, such a big city where I dun ever dare to think to have such a chance to go there during my day..
Feel please to have the chance =)
And yet, i dun have any excitement in my heart though it is such a dreamy place to me.
It's just like when I had to depart from MAS.
To me, it is more important to spend the day with someone else....
My friends who I'm well know with, crazy tgt~~ My family... My love one....
I was missing them badly during the time... They are the most important ppl to me...
This could be said as my most quiet birthday I have since I came out to study, no celebration, no cake, no birthday song...
I rather to celebrate my birthday in my homeland, with someone i'm familiar to...
London has anything I want... full with crowds, foods, etc.....
I saw koreans, japanese, chinese everywhere... wondering how good London is, why are the ppl coming here?
Besides, the transportation system is so good, excellent accessibility.
And yet, i think it is just in London but not all the states in England.... Not fully developed yet.
But, it is better KL make good the place 1st..
And... I could also see ppl with different kind of fashion on the streets.. Salute to them!
And.. finally i know, London is really a big city... I walked so much there....
I couldnt believe that i could walk so far....
I think, London is somewhere worth visiting... Quite a lovely n attractive city......
Finally, at the age of 22nd, i step on London...
Been to River Thames, Tower Bridge, House of Parliament, St. Paul's Cathedral.... etc
Somewhere i looked at pics since i were so young.. long long time ago...
I couldnt believe i was there.
But, there were not as pretty as in my mind...
My birthday ended up with Korean food with my friends...
Thank you~ ^^
Even it was simple, and yet after a tiring day, they still walk further to the restaurant..
Again, i wish everyone stay healthy n happily.... beware of H1N1*
And... i hope i can score the best result i could achieve =)
22nd... hmm~~~ i remember i couldnt accept that i was 20 years old...
And, it was 2 year ago...
Jui said, we are no more 18-22... Yup, we are not....
Hope that we could face the fact, and grow more matured, more responsible with our life...
At least, to have a target to go on~~~
22nd... it seems like, i still have nth~~~
Life, keep on to go, and I didnt make any change for it..
Let it be.......
This year, no more unacceptable feel... just... no feel, missing home land...
Age, sth i couldnt control...
And i think, i should grow up as time goes on....
I hope i do...
In London, i almost forget that was my birthday... Maybe, i dun have any celebration...
Without a cake... Anyway, i'd like to buy one for myself during my lunar calendar birthday..
Sound pity...
生日，其实只是普通的一天。
只想天天都开心 =)
London, such a big city where I dun ever dare to think to have such a chance to go there during my day..
Feel please to have the chance =)
And yet, i dun have any excitement in my heart though it is such a dreamy place to me.
It's just like when I had to depart from MAS.
To me, it is more important to spend the day with someone else....
My friends who I'm well know with, crazy tgt~~ My family... My love one....
I was missing them badly during the time... They are the most important ppl to me...
This could be said as my most quiet birthday I have since I came out to study, no celebration, no cake, no birthday song...
I rather to celebrate my birthday in my homeland, with someone i'm familiar to...
London has anything I want... full with crowds, foods, etc.....
I saw koreans, japanese, chinese everywhere... wondering how good London is, why are the ppl coming here?
Besides, the transportation system is so good, excellent accessibility.
And yet, i think it is just in London but not all the states in England.... Not fully developed yet.
But, it is better KL make good the place 1st..
And... I could also see ppl with different kind of fashion on the streets.. Salute to them!
And.. finally i know, London is really a big city... I walked so much there....
I couldnt believe that i could walk so far....
I think, London is somewhere worth visiting... Quite a lovely n attractive city......
Finally, at the age of 22nd, i step on London...
Been to River Thames, Tower Bridge, House of Parliament, St. Paul's Cathedral.... etc
Somewhere i looked at pics since i were so young.. long long time ago...
I couldnt believe i was there.
But, there were not as pretty as in my mind...
My birthday ended up with Korean food with my friends...
Thank you~ ^^
Even it was simple, and yet after a tiring day, they still walk further to the restaurant..
Again, i wish everyone stay healthy n happily.... beware of H1N1*
And... i hope i can score the best result i could achieve =)
22nd... hmm~~~ i remember i couldnt accept that i was 20 years old...
And, it was 2 year ago...
Jui said, we are no more 18-22... Yup, we are not....
Hope that we could face the fact, and grow more matured, more responsible with our life...
At least, to have a target to go on~~~
22nd... it seems like, i still have nth~~~
Life, keep on to go, and I didnt make any change for it..
Let it be.......
This year, no more unacceptable feel... just... no feel, missing home land...
Age, sth i couldnt control...
And i think, i should grow up as time goes on....
I hope i do...
In London, i almost forget that was my birthday... Maybe, i dun have any celebration...
Without a cake... Anyway, i'd like to buy one for myself during my lunar calendar birthday..
Sound pity...
生日，其实只是普通的一天。
只想天天都开心 =)
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Busy life in Liverpool
Hmm... time always flies without waiting for anyone.. This is the 3rd week in Liverpool....
For the 1st 2 weeks, it was quite enjoying... We had 2 hours classes per day... Gosh, what a relax studying life here. I thought, I was wrong by expecting the hard life here.
[According to seniors, studying in Liverpool John Moores University (LJMU) is much tougher than study in Sheffield Hallam University (SHU)]
I was thinking, how could seniors said tough with such a life? 2 hours class, then u could go around the city centre, walk around, do some shopping or window shopping, etc....
Nightmare begins...
Yesterday was the starting of 3rd week with a new subject, which is about cost and financial.
When I first get the handout, I looked at the schedule of the module... My eyes brighten up with sth... "Group Presentation"
There is group presentation on the next day, and it's going to be held throughout the 2 weeks module daily. GOSH!!!!!!!
What is this? It means, we are going to have daily assignment and have to present it on the next day..... >,<
I was really really upset with that, frustrated life.... Disgusting!
Maybe it is a long time i have been having my holiday, relaxing all the way without using my brain. And yet, i think, my brain need sometime to warm up.... zzz
I dun like a rushing life, just busying doing thing from day to night, before sleep, after i wake up..
That's why, on the moment, i'm looking forward to the weekends. At least i think, i could give myself some time, to tidy up myself. And also to let my hair down....
I always need time for myself, just to tidy up my own mind, prepare for the next week. Doing sth i like to....
Tension life.
Fighting with time for the assignments...
Searching some info which we do not know previously from none....
Hope that, everything going to be fine and get used with it...
=)
For the 1st 2 weeks, it was quite enjoying... We had 2 hours classes per day... Gosh, what a relax studying life here. I thought, I was wrong by expecting the hard life here.
[According to seniors, studying in Liverpool John Moores University (LJMU) is much tougher than study in Sheffield Hallam University (SHU)]
I was thinking, how could seniors said tough with such a life? 2 hours class, then u could go around the city centre, walk around, do some shopping or window shopping, etc....
Nightmare begins...
Yesterday was the starting of 3rd week with a new subject, which is about cost and financial.
When I first get the handout, I looked at the schedule of the module... My eyes brighten up with sth... "Group Presentation"
There is group presentation on the next day, and it's going to be held throughout the 2 weeks module daily. GOSH!!!!!!!
What is this? It means, we are going to have daily assignment and have to present it on the next day..... >,<
I was really really upset with that, frustrated life.... Disgusting!
Maybe it is a long time i have been having my holiday, relaxing all the way without using my brain. And yet, i think, my brain need sometime to warm up.... zzz
I dun like a rushing life, just busying doing thing from day to night, before sleep, after i wake up..
That's why, on the moment, i'm looking forward to the weekends. At least i think, i could give myself some time, to tidy up myself. And also to let my hair down....
I always need time for myself, just to tidy up my own mind, prepare for the next week. Doing sth i like to....
Tension life.
Fighting with time for the assignments...
Searching some info which we do not know previously from none....
Hope that, everything going to be fine and get used with it...
=)
Sunday, June 7, 2009
聊天
刚刚，突然有一位不太熟悉的朋友到我的房间来聊天。其实，只是普通谈天。
在我们这种阶段，很自然就会聊到毕业以后要到哪里工作。
听她说完，我觉得自己很幸福。在外读书的这些日子，我并没有打过工。
一路以来，都在享受生活。日子总是嘻嘻哈哈，除了功课的压力，基本上已经没有了。
我从来不担心钱不够用，也从来不想要向任何机构借钱读书。
毕业以后，就只需要给家人生活费，如果允许，就给更多，以作这么多年来的养育之恩
我们当然也有聊聊这里的生活。她说，她希望留在这里，因为马来西亚无法赚钱。
（她还有一大笔读书债）因此她说，想在这里工作。是的。。。因为兑换率，而且没有繁忙、古燥的生活。
或许他们努力过，他们已经迈进享受的时候。
这里的人，日出而作，日入而息，很享受的生活。
吉隆坡，车水马龙，四处喧哗。。。。。
再来，便聊到感情。她说，很多情侣来了英国读书以后，毕业以后，便分道扬镳
原因是因为双方都坚持在自己的家乡工作，从此断绝联络。
听来好像很残忍，可是这就是事实。
两个人在一起，就要相互忍让，互相迁就。
但愿，我没有这样的一天。
渐渐，对于自己的这一段感情建立起一定的信心。坦白说，对我来说不容易。
忽然听到这样的事实。。。 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！
对于前程，我还不知道。
因为，我觉得马来西亚比较有归属感。
因为，我不知道自己是否可以度过一个人的日子。
农历新年，中秋，冬至。。。。。。。。。佳节倍思亲。
突然，前路茫茫
累，晚安
在我们这种阶段，很自然就会聊到毕业以后要到哪里工作。
听她说完，我觉得自己很幸福。在外读书的这些日子，我并没有打过工。
一路以来，都在享受生活。日子总是嘻嘻哈哈，除了功课的压力，基本上已经没有了。
我从来不担心钱不够用，也从来不想要向任何机构借钱读书。
毕业以后，就只需要给家人生活费，如果允许，就给更多，以作这么多年来的养育之恩
我们当然也有聊聊这里的生活。她说，她希望留在这里，因为马来西亚无法赚钱。
（她还有一大笔读书债）因此她说，想在这里工作。是的。。。因为兑换率，而且没有繁忙、古燥的生活。
或许他们努力过，他们已经迈进享受的时候。
这里的人，日出而作，日入而息，很享受的生活。
吉隆坡，车水马龙，四处喧哗。。。。。
再来，便聊到感情。她说，很多情侣来了英国读书以后，毕业以后，便分道扬镳
原因是因为双方都坚持在自己的家乡工作，从此断绝联络。
听来好像很残忍，可是这就是事实。
两个人在一起，就要相互忍让，互相迁就。
但愿，我没有这样的一天。
渐渐，对于自己的这一段感情建立起一定的信心。坦白说，对我来说不容易。
忽然听到这样的事实。。。 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！
对于前程，我还不知道。
因为，我觉得马来西亚比较有归属感。
因为，我不知道自己是否可以度过一个人的日子。
农历新年，中秋，冬至。。。。。。。。。佳节倍思亲。
突然，前路茫茫
累，晚安
Saturday, June 6, 2009
All About Me = YaNQl
It has been a real long long time i dun update myself in the blog.
It is all because of the laziness in my body, running everywhere throughout my body from head to toe.
The long 4-mths holidays had marked an end, and i already started a new life in Liverpool. Which mean, i have to continue to study again.
After so long, i dunno is it ok for me to pick up myself in study.
It was about preparing the resit paper... Den, unknown direction...
Dunno could i pass the paper even i know how to do. Just worried about the paper, maybe the lecturer purposely to mark strictly.. Or.... etc
I could felt the strong heart beat when i was checking my result..
Thanks God, i had passed the paper and immediately to prepare myself to Liverpool...
During that time, my maid's contract terminated and have to help mum for house works at home...
After sitting n eating at home for months, it's really tiring to work so 'hard' everyday... I'm sure that my stamina had reduced tremendously...
I felt tired..... zzz
Until the eve before i depart to Liverpool...
I felt a lot ppl concerning on me. My aunts & uncles kept calling to me, chatting to me...
My aunts even on-leave just to send me to airport... Oh no!!!!!
Thousands of thank you in my heart to them... =)
[Hmm, honestly, i not really wan to leave MAS]
The moment the aeroplane departed from KLIA, my tears well up in my eyes.
I wished to stay... That is somewhere belongs to me, and i have all my thing there..
Family, friends, and everything.........
During the 1st night here, i really felt the loneliness when i turn off the light and prepared to sleep...
Felt to cry again... ;'(
I couldnt believe i had become such a gal.... I was so tough......
Maybe a cancer does really love home.
There was none excitement grown in my heart even the moment i arrived in London airport.. >.<
Sorry for tat, not to show off or anything...
During the 1st few days, i saw planes flying above the sky...
I was thinking, when would i take plane again and back to somewhere i belong to?
After a week, i had settled down, and getting used to here...
And yet, in my mind.. i still wish the arrival of the day to return home.
At here, white men everywhere.. Sometimes, i couldnt understand what they talked to me. Learning the new culture...
Shops shut in the evening, probably no night life...
silent streets since around 8pm... Cool weather~~~ bread meals...
It isnt hard for me to suit myself into a new life...
But i do really miss home...
Here, i get new friends.. but i dun really talk much to them...
I miss my best friends....
Maybe, i'd love the life here.. soon, or never...
Just wish that i'd experience sth here before i leave...
=)
It is all because of the laziness in my body, running everywhere throughout my body from head to toe.
The long 4-mths holidays had marked an end, and i already started a new life in Liverpool. Which mean, i have to continue to study again.
After so long, i dunno is it ok for me to pick up myself in study.
It was about preparing the resit paper... Den, unknown direction...
Dunno could i pass the paper even i know how to do. Just worried about the paper, maybe the lecturer purposely to mark strictly.. Or.... etc
I could felt the strong heart beat when i was checking my result..
Thanks God, i had passed the paper and immediately to prepare myself to Liverpool...
During that time, my maid's contract terminated and have to help mum for house works at home...
After sitting n eating at home for months, it's really tiring to work so 'hard' everyday... I'm sure that my stamina had reduced tremendously...
I felt tired..... zzz
Until the eve before i depart to Liverpool...
I felt a lot ppl concerning on me. My aunts & uncles kept calling to me, chatting to me...
My aunts even on-leave just to send me to airport... Oh no!!!!!
Thousands of thank you in my heart to them... =)
[Hmm, honestly, i not really wan to leave MAS]
The moment the aeroplane departed from KLIA, my tears well up in my eyes.
I wished to stay... That is somewhere belongs to me, and i have all my thing there..
Family, friends, and everything.........
During the 1st night here, i really felt the loneliness when i turn off the light and prepared to sleep...
Felt to cry again... ;'(
I couldnt believe i had become such a gal.... I was so tough......
Maybe a cancer does really love home.
There was none excitement grown in my heart even the moment i arrived in London airport.. >.<
Sorry for tat, not to show off or anything...
During the 1st few days, i saw planes flying above the sky...
I was thinking, when would i take plane again and back to somewhere i belong to?
After a week, i had settled down, and getting used to here...
And yet, in my mind.. i still wish the arrival of the day to return home.
At here, white men everywhere.. Sometimes, i couldnt understand what they talked to me. Learning the new culture...
Shops shut in the evening, probably no night life...
silent streets since around 8pm... Cool weather~~~ bread meals...
It isnt hard for me to suit myself into a new life...
But i do really miss home...
Here, i get new friends.. but i dun really talk much to them...
I miss my best friends....
Maybe, i'd love the life here.. soon, or never...
Just wish that i'd experience sth here before i leave...
=)
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