忽然

忽然，很想在这里写一写
其实，想写很久了，脑海里的情绪一直搁浅
然后，忘记

忽然，很害怕自己去不了英国
因为，我的其中一科不及格了
然而，还是吊儿郎当

忽然，开始从新追戏
其实，是妹妹要我一起看
不然，我不会这么快就快看完

忽然，领悟到，看戏真的可以霸占我一整天的时间
其实，我觉得很恐怖
好像，我的岁月就这样蹉跎了

忽然，我的‘老鼠’死了
其实，是弟弟闹着玩，把线给剪断了
当然，我真的很伤心，我捉着他打

忽然，不想睡觉
因为，刚才心情不好，出去吃了宵夜
其实，是挂念他

忽然，真的觉得自己空虚
因为，我好像不知道自己过着什么样的日子
只是，我只能等待从生的那一天

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很多事情，可以发生得忽然
很多事情，无法在我们的撑控之内
很多很多的事情发生了，一天以内，却又好像什么也没做
废废的日子，过得好难受
只是，我也没有勇气提出我想要的生活
我也没在受限的范围找出属于我的一片天空

Recently....

It seems like been a long time i dont update myself here..
I'm having my long long vacation in my hometown.
We always hope for vacation when we are too busy with something and feel tired.
And yet, i know myself quite well that i dont hope for such a long holiday.
I think, it might be just right enough if it is just a 1 month holiday.
Maybe i would only require for a longer holiday if i could monitor and schedule the holiday myself.

It is just right one month time since the CNY.
I have been wasting my time doing sth meaningless.
I would want to do sth else, but... It seems like couldnt as i know my mum would not allow me to do so~~
hope to learn sth else, but. what to learn?
Wanna do nth, but. Would be scolded non-stop by parents.
Wanna go on trips, but. No money n parents say, it is yet the time for me to enjoy.
Wanna work, but. My sister working now, and i think i should stay at home to assist my mum at least a little bit. (maybe i think too much..)

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