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Monday, March 28, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
流年不利
I cut my fingers at the very 1st working day of 2011. When I had cut, I didn't notice how much blood had bleed out. Is just normal fingers cut. Well, my colleague went into pantry and saw me standing there and he got shock. The whole hand of mine is full with blood and then only I noticed, the blood had been dropping on the floor and my whole hand.
What a bad starting of the year... I know, I crash with 太歲 this year, yet I don't know it would start so early even it's yet the Rabbit year. T.T
Well, thing goes/passes very fast. I prayed for a better days/year after that. Who knows, I suddenly get scolded by boss at the last working day before CNY. At the very last moment before I went home. This had marked a very very bad ending.
I'd say I went into her room during the wrong timing while she wasn't having a good mood.
From then onwards, I found my days aren't smooth like previously. My works, life, love, relationship with sis, every single portion of my life is not reaching the satisfying level as it used to be..
I found I'm lost in my life, I don't want to lose every single thing and dun wan to live in mess.
I'd wan to get back my time where life is centralized on my own but not others. I don't know, I feel my life in uncle's house is getting worse, perhaps my habit isn't sth acceptable.... or? @.@
But, I'm tired!
Well, due to all the unhappiness, I have decided to move myself to another life. It might be the way for me to hide from the problem, yet I have no idea where could I be in order to be better way to live for myself.
It might not be all the factor which caused me to make this decision, but it has made up the biggest portion
Yes, finally I had made up my mind, I want to go to further my study....
What a bad starting of the year... I know, I crash with 太歲 this year, yet I don't know it would start so early even it's yet the Rabbit year. T.T
Well, thing goes/passes very fast. I prayed for a better days/year after that. Who knows, I suddenly get scolded by boss at the last working day before CNY. At the very last moment before I went home. This had marked a very very bad ending.
I'd say I went into her room during the wrong timing while she wasn't having a good mood.
From then onwards, I found my days aren't smooth like previously. My works, life, love, relationship with sis, every single portion of my life is not reaching the satisfying level as it used to be..
I found I'm lost in my life, I don't want to lose every single thing and dun wan to live in mess.
I'd wan to get back my time where life is centralized on my own but not others. I don't know, I feel my life in uncle's house is getting worse, perhaps my habit isn't sth acceptable.... or? @.@
But, I'm tired!
Well, due to all the unhappiness, I have decided to move myself to another life. It might be the way for me to hide from the problem, yet I have no idea where could I be in order to be better way to live for myself.
It might not be all the factor which caused me to make this decision, but it has made up the biggest portion
Yes, finally I had made up my mind, I want to go to further my study....
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Recent
Feeling tired since CNY until now,a holiday is needed for myself....zzz
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Friday, March 4, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
PATIENCE
Dunno why, I didnt change my route once I see the jam today.
I drove slowly on the road
Well, the jam was moving slowly instead of stopping there
No longer later, it isnt crowd anymore.
After some distance, it is crowded again.
Well, I almost reach my destination.
I was thinking, if i took the alternate route
I may need to stuck in crowd again..
It made me understood that...
Be patient, the cloud would go off...
And, brightness would be here...
I shall work hard even it is tough now
So, i might have good life in future
I drove slowly on the road
Well, the jam was moving slowly instead of stopping there
No longer later, it isnt crowd anymore.
After some distance, it is crowded again.
Well, I almost reach my destination.
I was thinking, if i took the alternate route
I may need to stuck in crowd again..
It made me understood that...
Be patient, the cloud would go off...
And, brightness would be here...
I shall work hard even it is tough now
So, i might have good life in future
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
2010
2010 应该就是我开始真正自己生活的一年吧。
算是，自食其力？！
家人的压力，好像慢慢减少，现在，自在多了。
每个月还是尽力回家。
最近，妹妹都会说，是时候回家喝奶了，时间到了！
挺好笑的，但也说得蛮贴切。
常常，时间久了，就很想家，很想很想回家。
虽然回家常常都没什么贡献，但就只想在家，像个孩子般，赖在家。
家，始终是最温暖的。
在外面，很累，心里有什么受委屈，就要回家，默默地，把这一些埋起来。
然后，忘记这些。
然而，每次回来城市，还是带着沉重的心情。 XD
工作了一年，回头望，一整年都好像在工作。
但，我还是开心的。
年轻嘛，就是要这样拚搏，要好好地为自己慢慢地努力。
一年里，我学了很多东西。
谢谢，公司给我的机会，我觉得，我好像尝试了很多。
渐渐，我也知道，我其实向往哪里。
想要一步一步往上爬，直到我可以到达的巅峰。
我要踏实地走向未知的未来。
虽然着急，所以，我常常告诉自己，“要学会虚心学习，成功从来都不是一朝一夕的事情”
看到他人今日的成功，背后其实隐藏了过去十年的努力、辛苦。
我想，我应该常常记得这些道理。
对于朋友，好像看得淡了。
不是因为什么，只是觉得....
大家长大了，分配给朋友的时间，都不如以前那么多了。
现在，开始工作，有了自己的另一半，还要把时间分给家人，朋友到底还可以有多少的时间
我们，不能再像以前那样，成日窝在一起。
我们随着时间长大了，时间，也改变了我们。
但，心中还是惦记一些很好的朋友们，接下来的日子，大概都不会再找到这样的朋友了
祝福大家
伯母去世了，妹妹跟我，最终还是搬到伯父家里。
搬到这里，我才体会到母亲的辛苦。
每次我们旅行回来，都是大小包肮脏的衣服，大家一起旅行，回来，也都累了。
但是母亲，隔天还要继续工作，然后整理家里大小事.
搬来这里，我尝试把家里整理得整整齐齐，但是，真的很累很累！
嗯......
关于爱情，hmmm....
我好像一直都抱着见步行步的心态，没有一个确实的未来。
或许是害怕自己会在计划的未来里，失望地离开。
第二次的分离，也挨过来了。
自从他回来以后，我感觉到他对这一段感情的努力；我在他心中的肯定。
自问，我好像，不是这样
那一种肯定，是开心，也是些许的压力，因为我比较希望变得普通一点。
然后，我会自在一点，秉持着我一切随缘的理念。
虽然如此，我想我应该更相信自己和他，也应该好好地经营。
感情，无论再好，还是须要双方面的互动，否则，大概就会慢慢地走向末路。
时间
以前觉得，一个小时，还挺长的。
工作以后，一个小时，怎么什么东西都做不了？！
时间，好像都给了工作，我已经很久没有把时间用在自己要的颓废生活。
偶尔也觉得自己在蹉跎岁月，自己好像没有为生活付出全力。
没把生活过得更有意义。
我觉得，我随着时间长大了，也就是，变老了
我的健康，大不如前。
我的腰，很容易就陷入疲惫的状态。
脚底按摩师说，这里痛代表那里不好，那里又。。。
可是，我好像每一个部位都好痛！感觉自己好弱！！
:(
我应该好好地调理自己的身体，为自己铺下更长远的未来。
我想，我生活里最重要的便是妹妹和他。
但是，我总是一副德性，总是伤害身边最亲密的人。
是亲密而让我忽略？
还是，接触得多，磨擦自然也多了？
但是，我还是想向他们说，
谢谢
对不起
希望，2010年可以圆满地结束
然后，迎接更好的2011年
:)
算是，自食其力？！
家人的压力，好像慢慢减少，现在，自在多了。
每个月还是尽力回家。
最近，妹妹都会说，是时候回家喝奶了，时间到了！
挺好笑的，但也说得蛮贴切。
常常，时间久了，就很想家，很想很想回家。
虽然回家常常都没什么贡献，但就只想在家，像个孩子般，赖在家。
家，始终是最温暖的。
在外面，很累，心里有什么受委屈，就要回家，默默地，把这一些埋起来。
然后，忘记这些。
然而，每次回来城市，还是带着沉重的心情。 XD
工作了一年，回头望，一整年都好像在工作。
但，我还是开心的。
年轻嘛，就是要这样拚搏，要好好地为自己慢慢地努力。
一年里，我学了很多东西。
谢谢，公司给我的机会，我觉得，我好像尝试了很多。
渐渐，我也知道，我其实向往哪里。
想要一步一步往上爬，直到我可以到达的巅峰。
我要踏实地走向未知的未来。
虽然着急，所以，我常常告诉自己，“要学会虚心学习，成功从来都不是一朝一夕的事情”
看到他人今日的成功，背后其实隐藏了过去十年的努力、辛苦。
我想，我应该常常记得这些道理。
对于朋友，好像看得淡了。
不是因为什么，只是觉得....
大家长大了，分配给朋友的时间，都不如以前那么多了。
现在，开始工作，有了自己的另一半，还要把时间分给家人，朋友到底还可以有多少的时间
我们，不能再像以前那样，成日窝在一起。
我们随着时间长大了，时间，也改变了我们。
但，心中还是惦记一些很好的朋友们，接下来的日子，大概都不会再找到这样的朋友了
祝福大家
伯母去世了，妹妹跟我，最终还是搬到伯父家里。
搬到这里，我才体会到母亲的辛苦。
每次我们旅行回来，都是大小包肮脏的衣服，大家一起旅行，回来，也都累了。
但是母亲，隔天还要继续工作，然后整理家里大小事.
搬来这里，我尝试把家里整理得整整齐齐，但是，真的很累很累！
嗯......
关于爱情，hmmm....
我好像一直都抱着见步行步的心态，没有一个确实的未来。
或许是害怕自己会在计划的未来里，失望地离开。
第二次的分离，也挨过来了。
自从他回来以后，我感觉到他对这一段感情的努力；我在他心中的肯定。
自问，我好像，不是这样
那一种肯定，是开心，也是些许的压力，因为我比较希望变得普通一点。
然后，我会自在一点，秉持着我一切随缘的理念。
虽然如此，我想我应该更相信自己和他，也应该好好地经营。
感情，无论再好，还是须要双方面的互动，否则，大概就会慢慢地走向末路。
时间
以前觉得，一个小时，还挺长的。
工作以后，一个小时，怎么什么东西都做不了？！
时间，好像都给了工作，我已经很久没有把时间用在自己要的颓废生活。
偶尔也觉得自己在蹉跎岁月，自己好像没有为生活付出全力。
没把生活过得更有意义。
我觉得，我随着时间长大了，也就是，变老了
我的健康，大不如前。
我的腰，很容易就陷入疲惫的状态。
脚底按摩师说，这里痛代表那里不好，那里又。。。
可是，我好像每一个部位都好痛！感觉自己好弱！！
:(
我应该好好地调理自己的身体，为自己铺下更长远的未来。
我想，我生活里最重要的便是妹妹和他。
但是，我总是一副德性，总是伤害身边最亲密的人。
是亲密而让我忽略？
还是，接触得多，磨擦自然也多了？
但是，我还是想向他们说，
谢谢
对不起
希望，2010年可以圆满地结束
然后，迎接更好的2011年
:)
Thursday, October 28, 2010
飞行的梦～想
我说，
人呀，到底在为了什么而挣钱？！
男人说，
我要挣钱养家、老婆、孩子
女人说，
我要挣钱养活自己，不要再靠男人
毕业生说，
我要往我的梦想前进
学生说，
我以后要挣好多好多的钱
我要，。。。。。。。。。。。。。
当年，你我说的，还记得吗？
还是，依然毫无目的地飞行的梦～想。
Thursday, September 30, 2010
D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-M-E-N-T
Why I have being so lackadaisically ??
:(
Why is this my attitude ??
:(
Why couldnt I work harder ??
Put in more effort ??
:(
Feeling bad & Sad about myself........
:( :(
D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-M-E-N-T
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Soulless
I have been viewing around in Facebook since the morning until the evening with poor productivity in my works.
I'd want to know what's happening
Am disappointing with myself for behaving so.
Maybe,
An empty heart needs to belong to somewhere
While, am trying to get a space for myself
To fill up the heart
Or,
It had been flew away
Far off from my body and left,
The facade and skeleton
Perhaps I shall outbreak myself
Implement the knowledge learned
To get myself belongs to somewhere
Thoroughly
And,
Could always standing firm there
I'd want to know what's happening
Am disappointing with myself for behaving so.
Maybe,
An empty heart needs to belong to somewhere
While, am trying to get a space for myself
To fill up the heart
Or,
It had been flew away
Far off from my body and left,
The facade and skeleton
Perhaps I shall outbreak myself
Implement the knowledge learned
To get myself belongs to somewhere
Thoroughly
And,
Could always standing firm there
Friday, September 3, 2010
Happiest moment of the day ~*
Happiness perhaps something chasing by everyone every moment, everyday, ...
How does happiness define to you?
A simple thing might touches someone's heart,
Someone might need some big thing to touch their heart.
These are something could make someone feels the happy.
Happiness could cheer you, Him/Her, anyone.
Smile :)
I had been moved into my uncle's house which is quite far away from city or my office.
Averagely, I need to travel for an hour to go & back from my office.
It is quite tiring, honestly.
And yet, I found the happiest moment from here.
When I come back, my sis'd buy the food nearby her college.
Then, when we reach home, every1 preparing to get for the meal.
We sit down & eat together.
The simple action touched my heart.
Chinese culture, Union of family.
It is important to get every members of the family to sit down and have a meal.
:)
It is pretty moment after a tiring day.
最紧要就系一家人齐齐整整食一餐饭
How does happiness define to you?
A simple thing might touches someone's heart,
Someone might need some big thing to touch their heart.
These are something could make someone feels the happy.
Happiness could cheer you, Him/Her, anyone.
Smile :)
I had been moved into my uncle's house which is quite far away from city or my office.
Averagely, I need to travel for an hour to go & back from my office.
It is quite tiring, honestly.
And yet, I found the happiest moment from here.
When I come back, my sis'd buy the food nearby her college.
Then, when we reach home, every1 preparing to get for the meal.
We sit down & eat together.
The simple action touched my heart.
Chinese culture, Union of family.
It is important to get every members of the family to sit down and have a meal.
:)
It is pretty moment after a tiring day.
最紧要就系一家人齐齐整整食一餐饭
Monday, August 23, 2010
一个人的叻沙并不好吃
As usual, didnt want to wake up. =.=
Monday~~ :(
The car park sitter asked "lama tak datang? Tak kerja?"
Shaked my head "took LRT"
paid him RM6 for uncovered + unfurnish ground carpark per entry
Hungry due to skipped dinner last night,
Bought myself a cold nasi lemak from 7-11 after dilly-dally for 30 seconds
Lemak-less rice, sambal, etc no good :(
Cost me RM2 :(
Monday blue
Heartless in office for more than 1 week :(
Game for whole morning
Bejeweled, Bubble Spinner
Lunch
Mamak again, fasting month, only mamak
And, it looked like to rain
Bihun Goreng + Teh Tarik = RM5
Told myself to start work
Heartless to the structural works,
Asked myself to shift to architectural works
The drawings fainted me
Yet still manage to catch bit by bit
Working mood was cultivated bit by bit
Left office an hour later after the office hours
Just to finish what is in my mind
Worried would lost the determination tomorrow
My manager approached me for a few words
Just normal greeting
Yet, I worry that is something about project
Well, being selected to follow up the headache project which i hate the most
Anyway, i'm just the alternate person-in-charge
But, the person in-charge hardly to be in KL :(
I left
Surprisingly, It is still jamming on the road
I took the alternate way
Broke the rule
Passing the road barrier and got up to the flyover
Heading to night market in SS2
Craving for the Laksa
Across the road kerb illegally again
Then, Turning 2 rounds and finally got a legal parking bay
:)
I saw a few raindrops on my windscreen
I risked
I had my laksa + chicken floss bread as my breakfast for tmr
Laksa isnt that nice...... :(
RM4 + RM2
OK
I gone through the risk safely
I succeeded to get home before the rain pour
It is mid July of lunar calendar today
Saw somebody pray at the road side
RM19 carry to sum >___<
Monday~~ :(
The car park sitter asked "lama tak datang? Tak kerja?"
Shaked my head "took LRT"
paid him RM6 for uncovered + unfurnish ground carpark per entry
Hungry due to skipped dinner last night,
Bought myself a cold nasi lemak from 7-11 after dilly-dally for 30 seconds
Lemak-less rice, sambal, etc no good :(
Cost me RM2 :(
Monday blue
Heartless in office for more than 1 week :(
Game for whole morning
Bejeweled, Bubble Spinner
Lunch
Mamak again, fasting month, only mamak
And, it looked like to rain
Bihun Goreng + Teh Tarik = RM5
Told myself to start work
Heartless to the structural works,
Asked myself to shift to architectural works
The drawings fainted me
Yet still manage to catch bit by bit
Working mood was cultivated bit by bit
Left office an hour later after the office hours
Just to finish what is in my mind
Worried would lost the determination tomorrow
My manager approached me for a few words
Just normal greeting
Yet, I worry that is something about project
Well, being selected to follow up the headache project which i hate the most
Anyway, i'm just the alternate person-in-charge
But, the person in-charge hardly to be in KL :(
I left
Surprisingly, It is still jamming on the road
I took the alternate way
Broke the rule
Passing the road barrier and got up to the flyover
Heading to night market in SS2
Craving for the Laksa
Across the road kerb illegally again
Then, Turning 2 rounds and finally got a legal parking bay
:)
I saw a few raindrops on my windscreen
I risked
I had my laksa + chicken floss bread as my breakfast for tmr
Laksa isnt that nice...... :(
RM4 + RM2
OK
I gone through the risk safely
I succeeded to get home before the rain pour
It is mid July of lunar calendar today
Saw somebody pray at the road side
RM19 carry to sum >___<
Thursday, August 19, 2010
万事起头难！
有時候我覺得自己像一隻小小鳥 想要飛卻怎麼樣也飛不高
也許有一天我棲上了枝頭卻成為獵人的目標
我飛上了青天才發現自己從此無依無靠
每次到了夜深人靜的時候我總是睡不著
我懷疑是不是只有我的明天沒有變得更好
未來會怎樣究竟有誰會知道 幸福是否只是一種傳說 我永遠都找不到
我是一隻小小小小鳥 想要飛呀飛卻飛也飛不高
我尋尋覓覓尋尋覓覓一個溫暖的懷抱 這樣的要求算不算太高
所有知道我的名字的人啊你們好不好 世界是如此的小
我們註定無處可逃
當我嚐盡人情冷暖 當你決定為了你的理想燃燒生活的壓力與生命的尊嚴那一個重要
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
还记得小学时，老师教我们唱这一首经典的歌曲。
当时候觉得，这歌很可爱，这么多鸟，一直在算有多少个。
就，这么多。
前阵子，偶然听到这一首歌，另一个诠释方式，触动了我的心。
也许，是处境；
也许，是经历。
自从毕业，我感受到了新鲜人的痛苦。
凡事从零开始。
没有丝毫的经验，必须听从别人的指挥。
没有任何的储蓄，必须计算每分每豪。
就好像，飞上了青天，才发现，自己从此无依无靠。
每一步，都必须自己走，都必须坚强。
跌倒了，痛一下子，就要自己爬起来了。
世界，不会因为你的挫折，而为你停留。
一直以来，我的生活尚算不错，没有任何忧虑。
看到很多人，很好的生活，一直向往。
然而，却忘了，每一个人，都曾经是新鲜人。
曾经，受苦，或许艰辛地熬过来，才有今天。
我，却想一步登天。可笑！
丁当，今天如此高的点播率、曝光率，而我却忘了，
她，打拼了这么多年，我/甚至多数人都不认识她。
直到，今天。
我，应该学习沉着那一道气，慢慢往前走。
每一个目的地，都跟起点有一定的距离。
我，应该预留那一点时间，让自己磨练多一点。
经历多了，目的地的风景，应该会更迷人、灿烂。
Monday, August 16, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Life v MoneY
Was attracted by the RM1 fare by Air Asia.
Checking where to go..
I was interested in 2 destinations -- Krabi,Thailand ; Siem Reap,Cambodia.
I hope to pay a visit to Krabi is because of the nature.
I love the blue sea,
I love the greenish nature parks,
I love to see the mysterious of the caves,
Would like to go on the streets to feel the night life of Thai.
I hope to pay a visit to Siem Reap is because of the wonder!!!!
Angkor Wat, ,one of the 7 wonders.
I do have strong feel on the broken building.
To see the old time etched on the building.
To see the poorer life in Cambodia, to feel~~
[However, I dint have the interest to go to Stonehenge even i went to England :S]
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Well, recently there is another tempting heart promotion by Air Asia
RM99 to Seoul, Korea.
Hmmm, however i have not being attract by it.
Not interested with Korea.
I have quite a lot of friends bought the tickets.
Em, They are rich to me.
[I really dont know where have been my money gone..]
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Life,
Is for work?
Is for travel?
Is for anything? Anyone?
Well, everyone has their own ambition.
Someone, earn & save the money for investment
Someone, earn & save the money for traveling
Someone, earn & save the money for someone
Someone, etc...
Honestly,
I do jealous on my friends who earn more than me.
Yet, I stick to my target,
I think, the company could provide me the experience.
Hope, this risk I'm undertaking will really bring me benefit.
I asked myself,
What do I want for my life.
Em, I want stability.
I like to be flexible in stable life.
Flexibility in Stability
I want a covered area to form my own space, perhaps a family / my life.
I have been craving that badly.
Yet, financially failed to support the dream.
So, It depends, ur mind affects ur action.
Anyway, I do hope to catch more natural moment ~~
Here to share the reasons I like Angkor Wat through pictures =)
Checking where to go..
I was interested in 2 destinations -- Krabi,Thailand ; Siem Reap,Cambodia.
I hope to pay a visit to Krabi is because of the nature.
I love the blue sea,
I love the greenish nature parks,
I love to see the mysterious of the caves,
Would like to go on the streets to feel the night life of Thai.
I hope to pay a visit to Siem Reap is because of the wonder!!!!
Angkor Wat, ,one of the 7 wonders.
I do have strong feel on the broken building.
To see the old time etched on the building.
To see the poorer life in Cambodia, to feel~~
[However, I dint have the interest to go to Stonehenge even i went to England :S]
==============================================================
Well, recently there is another tempting heart promotion by Air Asia
RM99 to Seoul, Korea.
Hmmm, however i have not being attract by it.
Not interested with Korea.
I have quite a lot of friends bought the tickets.
Em, They are rich to me.
[I really dont know where have been my money gone..]
==============================================================
Life,
Is for work?
Is for travel?
Is for anything? Anyone?
Well, everyone has their own ambition.
Someone, earn & save the money for investment
Someone, earn & save the money for traveling
Someone, earn & save the money for someone
Someone, etc...
Honestly,
I do jealous on my friends who earn more than me.
Yet, I stick to my target,
I think, the company could provide me the experience.
Hope, this risk I'm undertaking will really bring me benefit.
I asked myself,
What do I want for my life.
Em, I want stability.
I like to be flexible in stable life.
Flexibility in Stability
I want a covered area to form my own space, perhaps a family / my life.
I have been craving that badly.
Yet, financially failed to support the dream.
So, It depends, ur mind affects ur action.
Anyway, I do hope to catch more natural moment ~~
Here to share the reasons I like Angkor Wat through pictures =)
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