Revive!

It has been many while I don't post here and in fact it has been dropped from my mind.

Time flies and people changed.

As time goes, I'm getting busier.
For the work, for the workshops.
Hardly to have a time for only myself.

Got a lucky draw for 2D1N stay in a hotel, planned to have deep breath in the pool. And yet, it was drizzling and not advisable to swim. At the end, I just do whatever I felt like to do.

Though a little bit waste of time, yet it was enjoyable, released nerves.

Hope I'd constantly have the chance to release myself.

上司 ● 朋友

说实在的，我不知道这到底是为什么，还是我倒霉。总在旅行前会被派遣一些紧急的公务。

几天后回来，我觉得地球依然在转，我依然走着，回到公司，人事依旧。

只是在办公室还没坐好就得出席会议，真希望一切安好,顺利。

庆幸有上司载我随行，至少我可以不必全神贯注。

可是临行前我才发现他正在放假。差异，所以向他问个所以然。

才惊觉即将辞职的同事的所有差物他都得接首。还有一个星期的时间，其实真不容易。

上司的语气很伤心，委屈。但是，我真不知道该怎么说，延续那一些话。

一整天里，我都好同情他。什么我可以做的，我都自己来。。。

只是，我不懂该怎么安慰他。

其实自从我们共事一些日子以后，我们都相处得不错。

或许，我们已经是比较要好的同事了。

虽然我们不同种族，性别。

这是，同情上司，有错吗？

疑惑。

随便 与 乐观

事到如今我还是偶尔会想起十年前的一番话

"我觉得你每次都对人说随便，我觉得你很假咯"

当时我应该觉得差异和心痛，但是我不怎么记得了

在社会工作差不多3年了，不知不觉。

近两个月，我竟然在月头就守着月光过活

凭着一份薄粮过活可真不容易

生活要维持在特定水准之上，收入却不长进(这或许是自己不长进)

接二连三的事情发生，说实在的，我没有埋怨，是在我叙述事发经过，别人说我倒霉，我才后知后觉

是我太随意地过活，还是乐观?

不懂!

我只是觉得，事出比有因

它来了，大概是給我的考验

工作多了，证明别人对我的信任，能者多劳。不要紧，经验是靠自己在路上收集的

不是每个人的生活都有人随时伴随左右

工作累了，有个妹妹为你打点

病了，为你操劳

我都很感激她的陪伴，毕竟这不是理所当然

我真的不晓得我太乐观或太随意

只是，生活应该不要太斤斤计较

ACCOMPLISHMENT

Though I knew there is no one visiting to this blog, anyway, I don't mind as I don't know how to share with my friends as well.
I just like to blog and write down my current feeling, right now!!

I've just complete a few hundreds millions project tender. I'm currently feeling extremely great!!
Yea, this is my 1st time handling such a big project, from previously 1-2 millions suddenly become few hundreds millions which gain my pressure by don't know how many times greater.
Well, It was tough, I was worry I don't perform up to standard, I couldn't complete, I'm unable to coordinate or to lead the team. Anyway, problems and obstacles were here. They were holding me all around me and made me breathed so hardly.

For the past 2 weeks, I couldn't sleep well, had improper meals or not even taking any food. I think, the situation was quite bad and I was so worry I would collapse. Though, I was wanted to be, so I'll be free from all those stumbling stones.
I was thinking, if this project put on those senior's shoulder, perhaps thing would be easy like ABC. I doubt myself deeply.

Anyway, I tried my best to keep myself alert, calm, and steady to perform something the best that I could give.

Finally, the mission almost impossible to me is completed. It's not by myself alone, but some of the team mates who helped out. And I was excused for trip, So.. I would still thank to everybody who ever help me..

Now, My heart, is as light as air... I can fly freely like a bird... =)

It's a kind of accomplishment in myself.
I told myself, I had tried my best, and... I'd make a better me gradually with time.

God Bless Me. =)

2012 的婚礼

觉得近两年有很多人好像在争先恐后地结婚

好像要在世界末日以前完成人生大事

认识的，不认识

终于，有身边好友的邀请

其实不需要邀请，我只是在等待你们给我时间

我要給你们最深的祝福

一定一定要幸福

昨晚跟朋友吃晚餐

知道另一个朋友求婚了

很开心，朋友长大，定性了

然而，求婚的理由却是

觉得女朋友跟自己住在一起一段时间了

然后自己好像有必要负责任

或许，这是一份责任心

一个男人觉得自己要负的责任

而我却觉得，如果一天一个男人因这原因而向我求婚

我应该会觉得讽刺

不是因为爱，或是要一起走更长远的路

竟然是不想亏欠我这些年来的 “付出，奉献”

男人，女人到底是你的什么呀？

生活

最近我又不断思考我的人生

我所追求，其实是为了什么

结的果，会是我所期待的味道吗？

我一直觉得，时间就像乳沟，挤一挤便有

我曾经坚信，然而我渐渐体会，我慢慢推翻自己

为了那一份薄粮,我觉得我牺牲了很重要的东西

健康

时间

为了完成工作，我将身边的私人事情都放一旁，临时爽约朋友的约会，很多很多

很多时候完成工作以后我都会很有满足感，但是按时下班，充裕的休息，固定的运动，大概会带来更好的生活吧。

继续

沉思

Back to the Square

Feeling really bad when I on the light n step into my room. Then only I remember that I've been outing for a week, yet I felt only 2 days.

Time really pass like flash.

However, I do feel the working days pass very fast perhaps the working loads have increased

Is it true the end of the world is approaching as disasters are happening all around the world...

Actually I believe by looking at the happenings, It's like punishment from the God. That's why the earth has actually turning faster than previous.....

The future me

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3D7565Ff4A2cg&v=7565Ff4A2cg&gl=US

Watched the clip n I feel guilty for behaving so.. hmm, I should work harder

Actually I've been working for 12hrs a day for a month, perhaps more..

Anyway, I still don't feel to collapse, but I do feel I'm mentally tired. I told myself, there is a target

I'd wan to get the professional license perhaps at the age of 30 or earlier. I'm asked by certain personnel to leave the job, I may get offer with 1k more salary

Yet, I don't know what happened and I stand still, I'm quite calm n steady with the offer

I know if I left, I may not have the chances of doing all these...

I'm currently handling projects and assisting senior in other projects as well

I'd say, I cant even finish those assignments tough I work for 12hrs

Anyway, due to the multi tasking, I started to make mistakes n got some complaints from clients. Being complained, scolded, disappointment... Etc.

I throw them out, release the tension, then a new n refresh me is facing the problems back afterwards

Coincidently, I read a phrase when I was feeling very bad, embarrass....

"Trouble brings experience, experience brings knowledge"

From the non compliances, I do learn..

How to handle the situation, etc..

Boss did hurt me, yet... Ok, I understand n I know how should I manage my own things

I shall practice that

I have a goal, I also provide a limit for that, hope it could bring a better future of mine...

Deepavali

A long waited holiday had came n gone like nobody business, yet the holiday means a lot to those who works daily.

For rest, for outing, whatever.....

I planned to go for exercise just because I'd want to try to have a healthy practice, grab some fresh air in a greenery space, for my own good as well

Well, it also due to the budgeting problem, money isn't a problem, yet It's a problem if u don't have money....

However, It's a little bit of disappointing as this desire comes to me when the raining season starts

When I was about to go to that garden, the sky looked grey n it finally drizzle

So, we turned into a shopping mall to grab sth...

Sadly, I took a fried koay teow..

Anyway, I just can't resist it

From the restaurant I could see there was no more drizzle..

I think, the god wouldn't want me to jog XD

To realise my desire, we grab the time n depart to that botanical garden

Was feeling pleasure to get the fresh air.. but the sky was still grey

End up, we ran out from the drizzle and it finally rained... Hahaa, it wasn't a good day for jogging

Ok, we headed to another shopping mall..

I saw lee hom's latest album, I was dilly dally whether to buy ..

Well, end up I didn't buy it but bought Reader's Digest...

Actually was trying to get sth which is worth for money... Hmm, shall I ??

Actually I have been hanging around the malls quite often... Found a new trend...

If u could create a trend nowadays, then you rule!!

Ok, let's see....

People would ask "have you Google yet??"

"Please check in your location through Facebook"

And, people are willing to spend the time to buy sth like iPhone, drinks like Chatime, a franchise growing fast recently, Over Time - another outing pub for the youngsters...

No matter it is big business or a small business, if you could attract people and make it a trend then you are success

So I was thinking on the way back to home, if I could make a brand/trend someday......

Isn't that is great???

Yet, how???

Should learn sth on it......

*I was once keen to try on Chatime n I tried it for the first time during my birthday.....

Taught

星期五晚上，看了辛亥革命。

哇！不错，不错！

可是，有点 “到喉，吾到肺” 的感觉。

看了，我觉得，我们也应该向孙中山似勇敢为自己国家的幸福努力。

我们必须往幸福的方向前进。

我们，是时候改变了。

Sunday Evening, watched Real Steel.

I learned, never fear of people saying we are weak or etc.

Fight until the last, Try the Best...

We may win the fight...

"Nothing is really over until you stop trying"

=(

I think it has been the worst weekend i ever have.

I was seriously feeling of tire, yet i have a lot of thing to do.

I think, i have to do this, this, this and that...! Urgh!

I got a long waiting increment letter and end up with tear.

Now i know, i got nth with my hardship.

I dont know what happened and the menstrual pain is very serious..

I tried my best to do my best instead of facing people with the bad temper.

I almost to scold the waiter...

Hmmm....

People are around me, even my family came to KL

Yet, i still feel lonely..

Actually, i have been thinking of getting married, if i meet a good guy who i think reliable.

I think, i'd tie up the knot, ...

I dont want to be very independent, yet i dont want to dependent on someone else, but my partner of life.

Life is not easy, i know!

疑是银河落九州

一直向往大自然的奥妙

也了解自己的渺小

今天我到了林明山的瀑布

第一次体验真正的壮观

It is amazing and etched in my heart deeply, I'll always remember it....

模糊

前方越来越模糊

我已经不知道下一站的目的地

我可以换另一条道路吗？？

静

最近都很想安静下来，好好地充实自己

很想找个安静又属于自己的地方

我觉得，生命中最重要的事情应该要好好地处理，时间不可以轻易浪费

任人怎么说，我还是选择留下

或许会徒劳，但是应该可以赚到一些经历

经历应该就是生活上最大的财富??

我大概应该不需要理会他人的话语、眼光

我大概应该继续埋头，好好地对自己的事业负责，然后再继续往前行

我必须要好好地盯紧我的目标

我一直在问，我到底想要些什么

我一直找不到哪一个我满意的答案

打从心底，我还真的没有那一股勇气

我想要的

最近常在想，思索属于自己的

我大概不可以再这样糊里糊涂地生活

我应该要懂得自己为了什么而活。

那天老板娘说，其实你不错，可是有时候blur blur

女人的生理期，这理由可以接受吗?

我必须要控制自己的情绪，再专心点为自己的事业拼搏

事业是否是一条引领自己朝向更高处的管道??

可以让自己拥有更多的钱

可以提高自己的价值和地位

可以开拓自己的生活圈子

我不知道我是否会一直这样

我的公司是否值得我继续留下

我，我的伴侣是否真的，可以陪伴我，照顾我????

我好像不知道他是对的人吗?

疑惑