上司 ● 朋友

说实在的，我不知道这到底是为什么，还是我倒霉。总在旅行前会被派遣一些紧急的公务。

几天后回来，我觉得地球依然在转，我依然走着，回到公司，人事依旧。

只是在办公室还没坐好就得出席会议，真希望一切安好,顺利。

庆幸有上司载我随行，至少我可以不必全神贯注。

可是临行前我才发现他正在放假。差异，所以向他问个所以然。

才惊觉即将辞职的同事的所有差物他都得接首。还有一个星期的时间，其实真不容易。

上司的语气很伤心，委屈。但是，我真不知道该怎么说，延续那一些话。

一整天里，我都好同情他。什么我可以做的，我都自己来。。。

只是，我不懂该怎么安慰他。

其实自从我们共事一些日子以后，我们都相处得不错。

或许，我们已经是比较要好的同事了。

虽然我们不同种族，性别。

这是，同情上司，有错吗？

疑惑。

随便 与 乐观

事到如今我还是偶尔会想起十年前的一番话

"我觉得你每次都对人说随便，我觉得你很假咯"

当时我应该觉得差异和心痛，但是我不怎么记得了

在社会工作差不多3年了，不知不觉。

近两个月，我竟然在月头就守着月光过活

凭着一份薄粮过活可真不容易

生活要维持在特定水准之上，收入却不长进(这或许是自己不长进)

接二连三的事情发生，说实在的，我没有埋怨，是在我叙述事发经过，别人说我倒霉，我才后知后觉

是我太随意地过活，还是乐观?

不懂!

我只是觉得，事出比有因

它来了，大概是給我的考验

工作多了，证明别人对我的信任，能者多劳。不要紧，经验是靠自己在路上收集的

不是每个人的生活都有人随时伴随左右

工作累了，有个妹妹为你打点

病了，为你操劳

我都很感激她的陪伴，毕竟这不是理所当然

我真的不晓得我太乐观或太随意

只是，生活应该不要太斤斤计较

ACCOMPLISHMENT

Though I knew there is no one visiting to this blog, anyway, I don't mind as I don't know how to share with my friends as well.
I just like to blog and write down my current feeling, right now!!

I've just complete a few hundreds millions project tender. I'm currently feeling extremely great!!
Yea, this is my 1st time handling such a big project, from previously 1-2 millions suddenly become few hundreds millions which gain my pressure by don't know how many times greater.
Well, It was tough, I was worry I don't perform up to standard, I couldn't complete, I'm unable to coordinate or to lead the team. Anyway, problems and obstacles were here. They were holding me all around me and made me breathed so hardly.

For the past 2 weeks, I couldn't sleep well, had improper meals or not even taking any food. I think, the situation was quite bad and I was so worry I would collapse. Though, I was wanted to be, so I'll be free from all those stumbling stones.
I was thinking, if this project put on those senior's shoulder, perhaps thing would be easy like ABC. I doubt myself deeply.

Anyway, I tried my best to keep myself alert, calm, and steady to perform something the best that I could give.

Finally, the mission almost impossible to me is completed. It's not by myself alone, but some of the team mates who helped out. And I was excused for trip, So.. I would still thank to everybody who ever help me..

Now, My heart, is as light as air... I can fly freely like a bird... =)

It's a kind of accomplishment in myself.
I told myself, I had tried my best, and... I'd make a better me gradually with time.

God Bless Me. =)

2012 的婚礼

觉得近两年有很多人好像在争先恐后地结婚

好像要在世界末日以前完成人生大事

认识的，不认识

终于，有身边好友的邀请

其实不需要邀请，我只是在等待你们给我时间

我要給你们最深的祝福

一定一定要幸福

昨晚跟朋友吃晚餐

知道另一个朋友求婚了

很开心，朋友长大，定性了

然而，求婚的理由却是

觉得女朋友跟自己住在一起一段时间了

然后自己好像有必要负责任

或许，这是一份责任心

一个男人觉得自己要负的责任

而我却觉得，如果一天一个男人因这原因而向我求婚

我应该会觉得讽刺

不是因为爱，或是要一起走更长远的路

竟然是不想亏欠我这些年来的 “付出，奉献”

男人，女人到底是你的什么呀？

生活

最近我又不断思考我的人生

我所追求，其实是为了什么

结的果，会是我所期待的味道吗？

我一直觉得，时间就像乳沟，挤一挤便有

我曾经坚信，然而我渐渐体会，我慢慢推翻自己

为了那一份薄粮,我觉得我牺牲了很重要的东西

健康

时间

为了完成工作，我将身边的私人事情都放一旁，临时爽约朋友的约会，很多很多

很多时候完成工作以后我都会很有满足感，但是按时下班，充裕的休息，固定的运动，大概会带来更好的生活吧。

继续

沉思

Back to the Square

Feeling really bad when I on the light n step into my room. Then only I remember that I've been outing for a week, yet I felt only 2 days.

Time really pass like flash.

However, I do feel the working days pass very fast perhaps the working loads have increased

Is it true the end of the world is approaching as disasters are happening all around the world...

Actually I believe by looking at the happenings, It's like punishment from the God. That's why the earth has actually turning faster than previous.....

The future me

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3D7565Ff4A2cg&v=7565Ff4A2cg&gl=US

Watched the clip n I feel guilty for behaving so.. hmm, I should work harder

Actually I've been working for 12hrs a day for a month, perhaps more..

Anyway, I still don't feel to collapse, but I do feel I'm mentally tired. I told myself, there is a target

I'd wan to get the professional license perhaps at the age of 30 or earlier. I'm asked by certain personnel to leave the job, I may get offer with 1k more salary

Yet, I don't know what happened and I stand still, I'm quite calm n steady with the offer

I know if I left, I may not have the chances of doing all these...

I'm currently handling projects and assisting senior in other projects as well

I'd say, I cant even finish those assignments tough I work for 12hrs

Anyway, due to the multi tasking, I started to make mistakes n got some complaints from clients. Being complained, scolded, disappointment... Etc.

I throw them out, release the tension, then a new n refresh me is facing the problems back afterwards

Coincidently, I read a phrase when I was feeling very bad, embarrass....

"Trouble brings experience, experience brings knowledge"

From the non compliances, I do learn..

How to handle the situation, etc..

Boss did hurt me, yet... Ok, I understand n I know how should I manage my own things

I shall practice that

I have a goal, I also provide a limit for that, hope it could bring a better future of mine...